I love you

You make me smile, laugh and give me a billion butterflies In my stomach from when I hear your name or voice to when I see you in pictures or in person. You’re different, amazing, in fact so perfect. I say all this but instead of feeling special like before now its like you really don’t care at all no more. I love you with all my heart yet you keep me so far. Breaks my heart when I can’t tell you how much I love you because you won’t say it back. What can I do though? Perhaps I am just a mistake and its probably best I leave you alone but I can’t which kills me because I can’t stop loving you no matter how much I try to stop myself. Every night I sit in my window sill and look up at the sky (moon/stars) thinking about you wishing you knew how I felt, how hard it is for me and how much I have fallen in love with you. Guess you’re probably wanting me not to talk to you and get annoyed when I do but I can’t stop myself from messaging you or calling you I wake up at crazy times thinking about you, wanting you nearby, but I remember I’m your nothing and it always will be that way. So what to do? Now do I force myself to leave you alone? Now I’m thinking do I tell you all this or just keep it to myself? Should I just be grateful that I have you in my life or is that just not enough? But I know that’s all I’ll ever be so how do I tell my stupid heart that?!